It’s all too much nowIt’s beyond too far.The masks, the vaccines, the second dose, third dose, booster.The pain, the fear, the terror. It’s enough now.My mental health has made the call for me and has completely fractured. It has leaked in to my subconscious and has manifested itself in very real and very frightening ways.The …
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Hello, My Name Is Anxiety.
I had my first panic attack when I was about 19. Thinking back, I was probably always an anxious child who grew to be an anxious adult. All the hallmarks were there -the disordered thinking, ‘always/never’ etc. I just thought it was a natural response to having a bit of a rocky childhood so I …
I’m A Wimp
“I don’t like the sight of blood” I say.“I faint too easily.”” I’m a sympathetic vomiter”. “You’re a wimp” they say.“You’d better hope you don’t ever get seriously ill!” they tell me.“You better hope that you never deal with anyone who has cancer! All those needles and injections!” they laugh, their words a patronising pat …
My Best Friend Died
I need to lash out. I need to be vocal and share. I need someone to bear witness to my grief. I also want to keep it contained. Seething and bubbling under the surface, where it is so raw and no one can see. I’m angry and it hurts -don’t touch me. But I’m fractured …
First Blog Fear
If you’re here reading this then first of all, thank you. If this is as far as you get before you click to another site, thank you. At least you got that far. I read somewhere that you should introduce yourself to your readers so here goes… I am a thirty-something woman in the clammy …
Grazed And Confused 